My new music obsession!!!

A few weeks ago Jordan and I went and saw Guster in concert. It was fabulous... But, what I really loved was their opening band... Good Old War. Just listen to their beautifulness.

It makes me want it to be spring so I can go on a picnic along with a portable record player, the love of my life, and jars to catch lightning bugs.

Sewing.

Just the other day I took a simple cardigan purchased from the local Savers and sewed some lace onto the middle edge to add some umph.

. Cute. Simple. Cheap.

Green monster

I have been thinking a lot lately about the fact that nobody has a perfect life, that anybody who wishes they were somebody else obviously doesn't know that somebody else so well. Everyone is to blame for feeling that small green monster inside whether its a passing thought of, "gosh, I wish I had tan skin like that", as a tall, skinny, tan gorgeous girl walks past you as she works it in her designer 4 inch heels. Or, saying to our best friend, "No wonder (insert name of a women down the street) is always so happy. Her husband is a beautiful picture perfect ken, they have loads of money and there kids are bLAHA BLAH blah BLAH blah!!!!"

Well guess what? Peoples lives are not what they always seem to be on the surface. Not that people pretend to be something different, some people just choose to be happy even if they wake up and crawl out of bed with their messy bed head and swollen eyes from crying the night before.

When I was in high school I would often time hear girls say things about me like, "she is annoyingly happy all the time." Well, girls I apologize for wanting to make the best of my life whether the day sucks or not. Do I make my life sound better than it is sometimes? No, words can't explain the amazing blessings I have received in my life. Do I not talk about my problems I have in life? Ya know, sometimes I do... Sometimes I call up my friends and vent for annoyingly long periods of times. But, there are a lot of things about my life that are scabs I don't like to pick at and make bleed all over again. Most hard problems I have had in life only my closest friends know the details about, and a lot of my problems only my family know about. But, I don't see that as me being fake. I see it as trials that the Lord has given me and lots of times those are sacred and personal to me and the fact that I don't walk around constantly sulking about them doesn't mean I pretend.

For the most part I feel like this blog has been somewhat real.

First of all, yes... I am loving my new job. I get to go into a cute house that was turned into a salon full of beautiful, real, and kind girls everyday. I know with all my heart that I made the right decision for me in my life at this moment. Is it perfect? no! Do I miss BYU? with all my heart. Will I go back? well right now my goal is to finish getting my cosmetology license... and after that I am not planning on what I will do, because like I have learned, God's plans don't always fit with ours. Why exactly did I choose to get my hair license? because the two majors I would want to do are not practical. Doing hair is a great job, knowing I will have something I can support myself with will help me choose a major I truly want to do because I love it... not because of money. And I need time to decide what that is.

Second, yes... I am dating an amazing boy!!! The two of us have been dating for almost a year. I know I always make our relationship sound perfect, and as all sensible people know, it's not perfect. I love the boy with all my heart and often feel unworthy to be his girlfriend. Why he chose me? I do not know. We have an amazing relationship and show each other nearly everyday how much we care for each other. But, once a relationship gets past the oblivious lovey dovey first 6 months stage love becomes a choice. We have gone through some rough spots, but we CHOOSE to stay with each other and because of that we grow closer each time we make that choice.

So, girls... love and embrace your life. don't expect it to be perfect. don't wish it different. and make the best out of the worst. And don't be so hard on the boys in your lives. Find a boy who you trust, one who can dissolve a horrible day by a simple hug, one who looks at you like you are the world, and one who lets you cry with out complaining about it...and hold on to him with all your heart, and return it all to him.

My first day

Hello all!!!

Yesterday was my first day at the hair salon... and can I just say one word HALLELUJAH!!!

After knowing MDT was not right for me I spent nearly a year trying to think of what I would want to do. And I am crazy in love already. Jaime, the hairstylist I apprentice for, is amazing! You would think standing on your feet for eleven hours helping fix people hair would stink! But, I really loved it... And when Jaime told me she doesn't come in on Tuesdays, and that I would have that day off, I was sad... Sad that I was not returning to work the next day. That's when I knew that I really found what I want to do. Yes, all the hair doings and reading of the text book interests me, but what I really love is that people come in and you talk to each other for two hours while you do their hair. So basically all day you just make friends... It's perfect for me. I am so excited to go on this journey. I feel so spoiled and lucky that this is school for me!

Now, I don't want to make it sound like all roses and smiley faces, it is tiring and a lot of work...but when the hard work is for something you enjoy..... well then I guess it is all roses and smiley faces.

A New Year!!!

Today is a new year! I am going to be very open in this blog post as one of my resolutions is to not be afraid to be me.

This past year has been an unimaginably amazing adventure. I was blindsided with so many unexpected plans the Lord had for me for my life. As I have reflected back on everything, my eyes have been opened to see that where I am in life right now is better than anything I could have imagined for myself.

If you were to have asked me a year ago what my plans for life were, I would have said with out hesitation, "to become a Broadway star!!!" Nothing in life made me happier than performing, and I was bound and determined to have a happy life doing just that. Of course as a girl I have always wanted a family... but I figured that would just come years after. And then I fell in love.

This time it wasn't that "High-school, why not date him...there is nobody at the school who quite tickles my fancy like him." kind of love. This time was far different... I never knew somebody could feel this way for another person. And I was (still am) convinced that nobody in the world has ever felt for someone like I do for him! :)

The two of us were not looking for a serious relationship, but were set up on a blind date by my mother in February. I thought he was the most perfect human being and loved spending time with him... I was super clueless and didn't realize that I was in love with this him because it all went so fast. I realized one day in March while dancing and kissing in the snow that I was in a lot of trouble... that this was the real thing.

My hopes and dreams for the future changed that day. I finally came to my senses and realized how much more important relationships and family are than getting into a Broadway show. And now all I can think about is someday being a wife and mother. Nothing makes me smile like the thought of these amazing spirit children in heaven that will someday be mine!

Because I no longer have the same goals for my life as I once did, I decided to no longer major in Music Dance Theatre. Do I love performing, YES. But this major is no longer practical for me in my life right now. I spent along time exploring other majors and praying my little heart out to find one that would fit me. I never felt a peace about any of them... That is when I came across a wonderful opportunity for me.

A hairstylist was looking for someone to apprentice her... I went in for an interview, learned about what I would have to do to get my license, and was certain this was for me. She called me a few weeks later offering the Apprenticeship to me!!! Many people think I am crazy, but the people who know me, love me, and are close to me support me 100%. Am I giving up? NO!!! If you know me, you know I am the last person on the earth that would give up on something... but when I find something that interests me, I take it. I start tomorrow and could not be more excited.

What I learned this year:

God knows what will make us happier in life more than us. We must trust in Him with all our hearts.

MY GOALS FOR THE NEW YEAR:

1. Embrace who I truly am, and not be afraid to share that with the world.

2. Enjoy each day with-out wishing the present away.

3. patience.

4. Try to be less sensitive.

5. Don't be afraid to love.

6. Be selfless.

7. Practice guitar everyday.

8. Start running more often.

9. Spend more time with scriptures/prayer/temple/journal.

10. Write my crafty ideas down, and DO THEM!!!